I heard it outside off and on all day but it stayed in the background of my mind. First, cooking in the kitchen I remember thinking, wow that's a different bird sound and it's so close. Again while doing laundry, I heard it but I had other things on my mind so it didn't even register. In fact I was slightly aware of the call all day, not once giving it much thought, almost like a dream that you know you had but that you can't remember the next day for the life of you......
It was later, while I was in my chair reading that I heard it again, close, distinct, beautiful, and all of a sudden it was if something had woken me up, that I had been in a coma and now I was conscience. The sound I had been hearing all day was an owl! I hear the call of mourning doves all the time, but this was different. I have never seen an owl in the wild and it is well-known within my family that it is on my bucket list to see one. Not in a zoo, not on TV, but in the wild. Free.
I don't know why there was an owl outside my house in the daytime but the sudden realization that there was made my heart beat faster. I couldn't believe that it had been calling to me all day and I hadn't noticed. Until now.
The moment I knew what it was, I sat very still in anticipation and joy for a long time. I listened. I waited and waited, almost holding my breath to hear it again. And I didn't. I couldn't believe it. I had heard it all day. Now it was gone. It was as if as soon as I became aware of it, it all of a sudden left.
It was later, while I was in my chair reading that I heard it again, close, distinct, beautiful, and all of a sudden it was if something had woken me up, that I had been in a coma and now I was conscience. The sound I had been hearing all day was an owl! I hear the call of mourning doves all the time, but this was different. I have never seen an owl in the wild and it is well-known within my family that it is on my bucket list to see one. Not in a zoo, not on TV, but in the wild. Free.
I don't know why there was an owl outside my house in the daytime but the sudden realization that there was made my heart beat faster. I couldn't believe that it had been calling to me all day and I hadn't noticed. Until now.
The moment I knew what it was, I sat very still in anticipation and joy for a long time. I listened. I waited and waited, almost holding my breath to hear it again. And I didn't. I couldn't believe it. I had heard it all day. Now it was gone. It was as if as soon as I became aware of it, it all of a sudden left.
How many other things are always in the background of my mind and I am too busy and too distracted to notice them?
I constantly say prayers to God that He would speak to me and give me a "sign" and He does and my mind doesn't register it and my eyes won't open...
And then there are times when I do all of a sudden realize that it is Him, that He is calling to me and it causes my breath to catch and it brings a peace within me, a peace that I long to have more of. And He is silent a lot of the time but I know He is still out there, watching me, waiting for me to notice.....
I constantly say prayers to God that He would speak to me and give me a "sign" and He does and my mind doesn't register it and my eyes won't open...
And then there are times when I do all of a sudden realize that it is Him, that He is calling to me and it causes my breath to catch and it brings a peace within me, a peace that I long to have more of. And He is silent a lot of the time but I know He is still out there, watching me, waiting for me to notice.....
I'm going to see an owl someday , outside in a tree, calling to me. And my heart will beat faster and I will hold my breath and I will know that he was there all the time, there in the wild, singing his song to me, just waiting for me to listen....
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